I'm pissed
I'm pissed. Just generally pissed off about everything. Everything and anything.
I told Jon last night that I think it's always lurking just under the surface and I never know what might make me explode.
When I say explode, I really do mean explode. In the last two weeks I've done it three times, twice hurting my hand while hitting the steering wheel of the truck in anger.
I don't know why I feel this way and I don't want to be this way.
I want to be normal. I want to feel in control of what I'm doing and saying. Right now, I feel like I have no control over anything.
I'm in a pretty big pit and I'm not sure how to get out.
I told Jon last night that I think it's always lurking just under the surface and I never know what might make me explode.
When I say explode, I really do mean explode. In the last two weeks I've done it three times, twice hurting my hand while hitting the steering wheel of the truck in anger.
I don't know why I feel this way and I don't want to be this way.
I want to be normal. I want to feel in control of what I'm doing and saying. Right now, I feel like I have no control over anything.
I'm in a pretty big pit and I'm not sure how to get out.
posted by JAB @ 11:57 AM
2 Comments:
At 3:49 PM,
SEDW said…
Go have your thyroid checkeed. I went through something similar six months after Daniel was born. I was an emotional train wreck. It was not a pleasant time for me or Scott. Turns out, it's pretty common for women to have thyroid problems post-partum. Hnag in there and don't be too hard on yourself. Your body has been through a lot!
At 7:50 AM,
LAS said…
I'm really sorry! That sucks! I usually get like that with PMS and it sneaks up on me - the mood swings. But, really, don't be too hard on yourself. Being a working mommy, particularly in your work environment, would cause anyone to explode on occasion! Hang in there.
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