I'm crazy

Okay, so the winter was difficult and I've been out of the blog-o-sphere for a while now, but I'm going to try to do better.

I want another baby. I don't know why. I can't explain it. I have two wonderful, beautiful, healthy children. Why would I want to "tempt fate" to have a third?

We can't afford it, I know that in my head, but haven't been able to explain it to my heart. My heart wants baby number 3. My heart wants to hear that first cry and hear those sweet baby noises. My heart wants to see E as a big sister again and wants L to know the protective feelings of being a big brother.

By my head tells me that we can't afford it. That I'm a busy woman and a third child would only add to that hectic pace. That I want to finish my dissertation. That a third child would take away from the time I give to E & L.

But I can't help it, my heart wants number 3.

I'm crazy.