Decisions, decisions
So last week after my post about #3, I had a complete breakdown. I was laying in bed sobbing because I feel like I can't have another baby.
So, I decided that I would make a pact with Jon that we wouldn't make any "permanent" decisions until 2 years from now. That will make L almost three and E in school.
He agreed....easily. We both feel good about it, and if there's a "blessing" in the meantime then it was meant to be. But for now, it feels like a weight lifted off me. I never imagined feeling like that. It was an incredibly hard decision to have L and now I feel like an idiot for ever wondering if I should have him.
On another note, I am seriously accident prone. Yesterday afternoon my mom and dad, E & L and I loaded up and went to the mall for lunch and an outing. When we got back to the house I was shutting the trunk of the VUE and hit myself in the head with the darn thing. Well, it knocked me into complete loopieness. My dad got to me before I fell completely down and saw the huge goosegg forming on my head and had the amazing presence of mind to pick up a ball of snow and put it on my head. He started yelling for Jon who was in the house and he came out and got me to the couch. I spent the rest of the night with a bag of ice on my head and popping advil. It hurts to smile and frown today and I've had a heck of a headache but thanks to dad getting the snow on it so quickly the bruise isn't so bad and my hair covers it up.
I really am a walking disaster. At least it was me and not one of the kids.
So, I decided that I would make a pact with Jon that we wouldn't make any "permanent" decisions until 2 years from now. That will make L almost three and E in school.
He agreed....easily. We both feel good about it, and if there's a "blessing" in the meantime then it was meant to be. But for now, it feels like a weight lifted off me. I never imagined feeling like that. It was an incredibly hard decision to have L and now I feel like an idiot for ever wondering if I should have him.
On another note, I am seriously accident prone. Yesterday afternoon my mom and dad, E & L and I loaded up and went to the mall for lunch and an outing. When we got back to the house I was shutting the trunk of the VUE and hit myself in the head with the darn thing. Well, it knocked me into complete loopieness. My dad got to me before I fell completely down and saw the huge goosegg forming on my head and had the amazing presence of mind to pick up a ball of snow and put it on my head. He started yelling for Jon who was in the house and he came out and got me to the couch. I spent the rest of the night with a bag of ice on my head and popping advil. It hurts to smile and frown today and I've had a heck of a headache but thanks to dad getting the snow on it so quickly the bruise isn't so bad and my hair covers it up.
I really am a walking disaster. At least it was me and not one of the kids.
posted by JAB @ 12:55 PM
1 Comments:
At 6:58 AM,
NB-C said…
Oh sister...you can have another baby and you will if that's what you and Beak decide. Things have a way of working themselves out and no one can ever really afford one kid let alone two or three, but you find a way to make it happen. Hang in there. Love you!
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